a fear of fear.

On the beautiful 8th of February, Wednesday I had my first counselling session to try and help my insomnia, it was great. although the worst bits of it were the silent pauses when the therapist was waiting to hear what I had to say and all I had to say was "ummmm pffftt" she said I had a fear of fear and a severely low self esteem, that I don't give myself as much credit as I should.

my brain went KAPOWWW

^ that right there was a focus piece I did on Robert Crumb when I first applied to uni, I was given some work to do to prove I could still do assigned projects. of course I focused on 3 of my favorite madmen; W Heath Robinson, Jordan Buckley and the beautiful man Robert Crumb.
Again it would be nice to hear what people think, about my work, I've noticed almost a double in followers since I've started regularly posting again I'm grateful that people would even want to pay attention.

peace and love
MILKbaby

Listening to Neighbourhood - Zed Bias feat. Nicky Prince & MC Rumpus

what the hell is a guarantor form, and why is my mum so dubious to sign it?

So I did am all nighter last night, today I used my printer for the first time (still running on the test inks it came with of course) its possibly the loudest printer to ever exist, EVER, and I've worked in two print shops in my life, none of them had anything this loud. but its reasonable quality, and I'm supposed to be able to print 3D images with it, like the red n blue shit.

I've been looking at some cartoons that're on these days, the style looks quite innocent, almost childish, yet the underlying tones or even just the straight up messages of these cartoons are so awesome, messed up, tongue in cheek, I LOVE IT, I wanted to take the piss a little bit out of this, I grew up on Pokémon, Ultimate Muscle, and Ren and Stimpy, I had to acknowledge the change, between Powdered Toast Man and Adventure Time/ The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack... so I did a little doodley doodle 

Today I've been listening to :-   dinosaur! attack! - Atlas EP
These guys are good friends of mine I've played so many shows with them but i still cant get enough of them

plymouth uni catch up

hello one and all. apologies AGAIN, for the neglect of this blog, this weeks mission is to post here every night accompanied by an image, like this one...

as some of you may know i suffer from insomnia, hence why most of my posts are usually at early hours of the morning. let me know what you think of some of my artwork, i always love hearing what people have to say, and if you happen to stumble across this page without knowing me i am open to commission work of as many  styles as possible.

listening to:
foxy shazam- shadow of a shoulder parrot

foxy shazam- shadow of a shoulder parrot

check it out for weird music 

I KEEP NEGLECTING YOU IM SORRY

all i have to do at the moment is upload some of the old pictures i haven't put on here. BUT. i got into Plymouth uni to do illustration which means as of September i'll give my 6 hardcore followers regular MILKbaby work.

what to give you what to give you... how about this... my weapon of choice... the dreamer :)

i promise i'll try to upload more stuff as i get back into the swing of things im considering getting a MILKbaby tattoo soon :)

yay :D

jellyfish.

 Now I know I've been neglecting you hardcore MILKbaby fans but here is a little gift for you. It was completely experimental and I'm quite messy today what with a spray paint cans exploding in my face leaving little white freckles but if this one goes down well I'll probably do a series of these things :). 

But I hope you enjoy :) If you're interested in purchase drop a comment please 

thankyou

xxxMilk costs more than gasoline in many areas of the United States.xxx

oh hey there :D

i almost forgot i had a blog, im sorry to all you hardcore milkbaby fans, i've been a little bit busy with portfolio work and....looking for a job, yeah still no blog.
a few changes in my life since i last wrote,
 i am no longer the bassist of acres of life im now the lead guitarist =] happy me because i've always preferred guitar than bass
give us a whirl and say hi more new music coming soon
www.myspace.com/acresoflife

:( my poor doggy noggin who i raised from day 1 of his life died yesterday morning at 14 years old, he was my bestest friend in the world and i miss him so much already

i spend most of my free time.... playing pokemon white. cas im fuckin awesome :D:D:D:D my pokemons are better than yours :P:P

thats all i got to say lads and ladettes.

excelsior xxx

Let's get milky :D

I'm not entirely sure what to write in this post all I've gotta say most things in life are irritating me except from my beautiful girlfriend, she supports me through everything and I wanna thank her for everything she's ever done for me and everything she's going to do. I don't deserve her but I'm gunna hold on to her for as long as I can hopefully forever.
I'm having trouble sleeping these days I tend to stay up all night either thinking working out or watching bad tv i.e jersey shore lol I'm watching drag me to he'll ATM I'm not entirely sure what's going on there's an old woman with staples in her head gumming someone lol

I seem to be always scared of lose everything that makes me happy :(

Goodnight non existent readers

Call that music?

Jessie j who the fuck are you! I'll tell you who you're a White girl who shouldn't say man'dem once let alone a handful of times in your stupid fucking song, and how ever the fuck you managed to even release a single with that voice is beyond me, I've heard chavs in the middle of town with the same talking voice as your singing voice, your music video makes you look like a fucking mental case, since when is it good to bare your teeth like a dog, every female solo vocalist in the past year has done the same thing, a fucked up stupid music video, trying to make the artist seem somewhat controversial, everytime it's shoddy camera effects and baring your teeth like a fucking Rottweiler, don't get me started on how Fucking slutty they look. No talent no imagination no inspiration it's not music at all they are not musicians they're puppets. Jessie j is a japseye gaga is agoon and even rhianna was a retard to do this before.

Sorry about that pop music angers me.

On a good note things with my girlfriend are amazing, I'm still looking for a job, band is awesome and hopefully I'll find a job soon. Sorry about the rant
peace and love. Xxxxxx

2011 the year of the milkbaby

so MILKbaby, most people say "WHAT THE FUCK" to milkbaby, but to avoid questions from here on I want to share everything that I believe in, so far in my life I've been known for one main thing. my drawings, my art, its what i want to do, and slowly people are seeing milkbaby everywhere, (if you haven't yet you will do I promise you that) I've had someone tell me I'm the best at what I do because what I'm doing is my dreams, and despite many people trying to knock me down I'm still doing it and I will never stop. the MILKbaby way is to release any morals when it comes to creating, I mean when a couple are creating a baby they're not gunna do it gently to try and make sure they conceive a child correctly, they're gunna have a hard dirty unprotected fuck and hope that a little sprout pops out and it can be two times more successful than they could ever wish for. so whenever I try and create I want something that'll stick with people even if that means my work will haunt them in their dreams.
but I don't want people to say hey there goes the original MILKbaby he's the best, I want to create a team of people, with no morals, with no borders, people who will fuck dirty and hard and follow their dreams then people will say they were MILKbaby. 

I soon will be hopefully releasing a line of clothing, let me know if you're interested


peace and love
MILKbaby
xxx<3xxx

cunt cunt cunt

and back to emo blogs again. :( im getting fed up of not knowing where im going and back to thinking about calling quits. i fucking hate myself :(

so what if my nipples are hairy

I've realised that my blog posts are consistently emo and talking about illnesses and shit family. I'll try and make this one a change.
I haven't blogged in a while, to catch up, I'm still jobless, I'm still in that band that sings that one song where we go WOOAAHHHH
and for the last week I've been suffering with a fractured rib. 
I have a gig tomorrow, it'll be interesting because I plan for Juan el destroyer to go absolutely fucking insane as its the last projekt rev this year, I also gave Juan a mouth so he'll be slightly more comfortable :)
I want to play guitar in a band I feel my guitar playing skills are being neglected, I like our acoustic gigs because I get to play guitar and its fun because me (the bassist) plays everything our lead guitarist does because he's poo at acoustic :)
I've recently been a mega nerd and I've been beta testing DC universe online.... ILOVEIT! its a video game version of every ten year old dream and I've been reliving my ten year old dream of becoming a superhero
my character can control fire and can fly and is super cool just like me :)
it snowed today like a random blizzardy kinda thing and all I could do was think of star wars episode 5 references =D
"and I thought they smelt bad...on the outside" :D


goodbye smellyfaces :D

fed up

im getting fed up of people taking advantage of my good nature, i should have my money when the money has come in not when it suits employers, i want to not be ill anymore cas all its doing is putting a divide between me and my parents even more, "u r a stupid useless boy who doesn't care about others!..." that is from a 49 year old woman, grow the fuck up all i've ever done is care about everyone, everything i've ever done was for YOU, to make YOU happy, to give YOU ammunition so you can carry on your petty fucking war against your sister, over who's raised their kids better. well hear this, I've had it, I dont care anymore, from now on its for me, im not looking forward to christmas because i have to see my cunting family, i am seriously in the right mind frame to call it quits right now, ridiculous fucking shit.

meh

I honestly have no idea where I'm going anymore and I'm sure that if i call it quits it wont matter to anyone :( emo I know but I just feel like it.
im constantly confused and i dont know what i want, i've lived the majoirty of my life trying to please the people i love and when i tell them i'd like to follow my own dream for once im told that i'll never have their approval for whatever i do.


 this is all awfully cuntish.
goodnight
xxxx

what if?

what if my illness was something worse, what if my extremely excruciating regular headaches had an actual physical cause, this scares me, like have i accomplished everything i'd be happy with have i done everything i want to do, would i be happy to leave this and say i did my best, :( im actually really scared of this, :( i dont know if i'd get it treated. i dont want to leaveanyone behind, but i dont want people to suffer watching me try and get better, fucking hard shit :( dont like this one bit :(
MILKbaby is a cunt

Early morning again???

Yes milkbaby followers yet another early morning post, I may make it officially known that I'm nocturnal, I'm watching cribs and there's this wwe dude called something Batista and he has a nice house and a healthy collection of prop edition lightsabres I want some. I just saw an advert for a new mcr song I'm not sure if I'll like it, and now Pete wentz is on cribs he should die he's a bot of a nob if I'm honest.
I slept in till 3:30 today jess' brother woke me up when he came home from school I'm sure it's not healthy to have my sleeping pattern
Pete wentz seriously sucks
I want a big house and a promising future when I'm older, I also want a bulldog puppy :)
goodnight imaginary milkbaby fan maybe I'll upload some photos of my artwork so you can actually be a fan of something I do :)
night night xxxxx

I'm not entirely sure

I'm bored. Lying in bed at 10 past 3 in the morning again gollums not here this time, I've decided I'm gunna get back down with the fitness stuff, I even did some weights today I kinda want a punch bag but I have no where to out it plus my brother would use it as a target for his ak47 or his multiple swords hmmm rather the bag than me I suppose :D
I miss my baby she makes me so happy and if anyone hurt her I'd go all primitive on them and bite their throat till they dieded, I'm so lucky to have her i've made one mistake in the relationship but I don't want to go back and change it because I've learnt from my mistake and there us no way in hell that I'd do that again
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH XXXXXXXX
goodnight imaginary person who reads my blog

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep

having trouble sleeping right, but get this because last night when i shut my eyes i kept hearing the voice of fucking Golem.... that's right Smeagol was keeping me awake. fuck my life sideways, I'm not even making it up i miss actually being able to sleep in my own bed :(

peace and love

xxxxx

Ermmmmm hii

Hello, I'm MILKbaby, I'm 19, I play bass in a band and I do anything to spill my creative juices, I don't really know what to write on here really I'm just kinda winging it, i guess I should explain a few things first, my artwork is weird my music is pop punk/metal, I skateboard to a reasonable level and I'm currently terrified of life. I'm Ill some would say and I don't really understand how things get better despite how many people say I'm gunna get better, I want to go back to the doctors but I'm scared, I don't do doctors they just have letters in front of their names and nothing else.
I have a light though someone incredibly beautiful and caring, she makes me so damn happy it kinda outways my fears of everything else. I think it's safe to say I'd happily spend the rest of my life with her because she keeps me moderately sane... I love you...
I may as well try and sleep it's 3:01 in the morning and I don't feel tired but I know I should sleep
night night xxxxx